Life through words

Never before I felt this   Strange feeling in my heart Beating so fast, Feeling so low, Me, fully anxious Yet so calm, Never before I wanted this One message One call One notification To slow me down This unexplainable urge To talk to you Waiting and waiting   But didn’t get it Couldn’t give it Never before I regretted more Going away from you Not talking to you the way We used to Not telling you things I wanted to say Letting those moments go Which we cherished together.   Never before I stopped myself more From sending a text From asking for your help When I needed you From crying   From falling apart You think it was easy to me I wish I could let you know That never before, I felt The pain I have   Of letting you go… -- Rahul Garg

Kal raat main ghar nahi gya Kuch ajeeb c uljhan thi shayad Hazaron baten dod rahi thi zehan me Ya shayad vo ek hi baat kha rahi thi mujhe Kuch samajhna, mushkil sa tha shayad Ya bas yuhin ye dil bechain tha Par han Kal raat main Ghar nahi gya... Main poori raat Vahin usi kursi par betha raha Or jab kuch samaya baad fir vahin gardan latka kar Nidra me leen hone laga To achank fir kuch khyal Aya Or main nahin so paya Shayad, kuch ek hi saral sa khayaal hota To ghar chala jata... Main yun Apne mobile pe Samya dekhne ke baad bhi Ek soch me dooba nahi rehta Or shayad Or Shayad main vo akhiri train le pata Par  kal raat main Ghar nahi gya... Sach kahun To nahi malum Ke main ghar nahi gya Ya ja nahi paya Par agar chala jata to kya hota Shayad Vo vichar ghar pahunchne par bhi Mujhe yuhin kaat te Or main fir so nahi pata.. Ya shayad mujhe sukoon ki neend aa pati Nahi malum Par kal raat main Ghar nahi gya... Kal raat ke baad main ab Ghar ja ...

Waiting at the station, She came  and sat beside me Big travel bag packed Skis in her hand Going for a trip? Maybe I looked at her And smiled,  Thinking, she must be excited But she didn't... She just looked And turned her head down Lost in something... She wasn't happy Wanted to, but couldn't ask Wandering about it, The train came We boarded a different coach But I could see her From here... Her friend was waiting inside The moment she hugged her She cried Yes, she cried! Knew something was not right, Glad that she had someone  To express herself... And now as I'm writing this Her friend's trying to make her smile By cracking some jokes By telling some stories From here, now I can see A mix of smile and tears On that pretty face... - Rahul

Ik wada hai chai ka, Tum aana Ghar hmare Hamen intezar rahega, Khali chai nahi Samosa bhi har baar rahega Pani Kam Doodh zayada, Chini Kam Masala zayada, In sabke saath Ek ansh hmare pyar ka rahega Ik wada hai chai ka Hamen intezar rahega... Taza karege vo sab yaden Jo smeti thi tumhare saath, Bade sambhal ke rakhi hai  Tumhare nakhro ke saath Tumhara vo sacha sa gussa Vo jhootha sa pyar, Tumhare balon ki khushboo  Tumhare choone ka ehsaas, Sab taza karenge  Har ek  chuski ke saath Tum aana ghar hmare Hamen intezar rahega... Ye vada nahi Todenge Tumhare vadon ki tarah Na rang badlega is chai ka  Tumhari baaton ki tarah Khuda se bas yahi guzarish hai Ke zaban me methas de Tumhare jhooth ki taraha, Par baaten kadak hon Is chai ki tarah Tum aana ghar hmare Hamen intezar rahega... Chai pe charcha kar Hum dil behlayenge, 'Rahul' ki kalam se likha Tumhe ishq padhayenge Ye vach...

It'll go away Slowly and smoothly Hurting you enough Piercing right through your heart Just like her glance did For the first time When you saw her  Your heart skipped a beat and you were awestruck She was just perfect She is just perfect... This feeling Of leaving the fairyland This pain of not able to hold it l onger This urge of walking beside her for a long walk This repentance  of not saying thousands of things which you could have said if you had time  all of this will go away Slowly and smoothly Piercing right through your heart Just like her glance did Perhaps there was time to tell her  how beautiful she is how special she is but you just got lost in  The touch of her hand The warmth of her body The kiss on your hands And the soothing sensation of her voice... This feeling of she being there Holding your hands Which you don't want to let go Bringing her close...

Sitting in the corner,  of an empty room The silence haunts you  There's no breeze Clock's ticking is the only noise left The Outside voice has been sealed  by these terrifying walls And you can hear your heartbeat out loud  as if your heart is beating outside your body At this moment, You feel, Like the time has slowed down  and  It will be like this for an eternity You can't feel the pace of time anymore Thousands of thoughts keep pondering your head But there is no clearance of anything Every thought is just like a bubble It goes away  before you see it completely. You haven't eaten anything for the whole day  Or has it been some days? You don't know There was food in the microwave Which is there now for sometime You don't know how long But you can't get up to take it out  Because you are numb Petrified by this tranquillity   Making you feel full... You think like Even a single drop of...