Never Before

Never before I felt this 

Strange feeling in my heart

Beating so fast,

Feeling so low,

Me, fully anxious

Yet so calm,

Never before I wanted this

One message

One call

One notification

To slow me down

This unexplainable urge

To talk to you

Waiting and waiting 

But didn’t get it

Couldn’t give it

Never before I regretted more

Going away from you

Not talking to you the way

We used to

Not telling you things

I wanted to say

Letting those moments go

Which we cherished together. 

Never before I stopped myself more

From sending a text

From asking for your help

When I needed you

From crying 

From falling apart

You think it was easy to me

I wish I could let you know

That never before,
I felt

The pain I have 

Of letting you go…

-- Rahul Garg